Well, I dropped him off at the airport today. I waited in the van and didn't help him with anything. He asked if I wanted a hug and I just shrugged my shoulders. He told me to take care and then I drove off. I have only cried once today and that was after a 5 hr. drive home. It was hard to know that he is gone for good. I miss him so much right now. He was my world for 15 years and now I am all alone with my 2 kids. I truly hope I find someone who appreciates me for everything I am and do. I need that in my life. Not someone who is as needy as he was throughout the marriage. He told me he wants nothing but happiness for me, and I told him that I want nothing but misery for him. And I explained why. i said because I didn't want him to be happy because I am so hurt right now. I want him to be so miserable and realize that I will not be there anymore to pick up the pieces of his sad little life again!!!
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