Made it through the 4th. My sister and I spent the day shopping. Now, for the day after. All I can do is think about what he did yesterday. Did he hang out with all of his friends? What does he tell his friends about where I am. He took his ring off the minute he left, so they know that we are not together. Does he tell them that he left me because he just doesn't love me anymore. (that's what he told me). Does he tell them about the affair he had? Does he feel sad when he is hanging out with his friends and their families, when he no longer has one, or more likely does it not bother him at all? After all, he has told me he is content now that he is gone and on his own.I woke up with such a hollow feeling. I just want him to come home, and I know that is never going to happen. This was our first holiday apart, and I keep hoping maybe his friends and family talked some sense into him while he was there. I know that is wishful thinking, but his family and friends saw the love we shared maybe they can remind him of it.
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