She came home two days ago in the early morning and walked right up to me and started hugging me and kissing me and telling me that she is sorry and that she still loves me and wants me in her life. It felt so good to feel her embrace, but I hate her for it. Teasing me with her affection. I immediatly wanted to talk about things so we did. After talking a while about how we could possibly work this out she tells me that she wants to be with me but that she cant guarantee she wont see other people along the way. I wanted to tell her to leave right then and there. She told me that this other guy wants a relationship with her but, only and open relationship so her can have sex with other girls. Im not sure but my better judgement is telling me that she wanted him but he doesnt want her the way she does. I hate this women about as much as i love her. So basically shes telling me the same thing he is telling her. She wants me but she wants other men too. Bottomline... I dont do that bullshit. She has already taken my dignity and now she wants my integrity. F*** that. She either needs to get with me or get away from me. I just dont know if im strong enough to really let her go. Any advice??
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