Oh our Saturday nights are starting in the same corner. I'm trudging thru the day but really missing the companionship. I finally got the gumption to take my kids to the park and come home and read books. But I'm lonely. My hubby has been cruel and manipulative and nasty. He keeps playing head games. I don't understand because It is obvious HE wanted out. Now that he has out he's going out of his way to make me miserable. I guess what he really wanted was to have his cake and eat it too and I said NO! Now I struggle with all the angry words I want to say to him. But will this change his actions, thoughts or behavior NO! That sucks. I hate his selfishness. It's so unfair. I stayed faithful I was committed to work things out. He gave up, he acted out, he neglected Us (his family). But I am punished. GOD bring me justice.

funy, i really struggled today with not being able to tell him how much I hate him right now -- adn her how much I hate her -- I have no way to comunciate my hurt to them adn it wouldn't do any good -- it just doesn't seem fair that they get to betray and go on their merry way leaving me with the mess -- but what good would it do me if I could tell them how I feel? NONE!

You know when you talk with a careing feeling human being it dose help to tell them your feelings but seeing as STBX and OW don't appear to be either it would be pointless. My husband did ever put me first or consider my feelingsa baout anything he worked 7 days a week and his money was his but mine was ours. He refused to help with the kids but i picked up after his mean abusive mother with dementia who's intrest were smearing her feces and beating me with her cane for 5 years. He threw me and my kids out and now he ecpects me to be resonable and he is calling me drunk at 2:20 in the morning.