I am recently separated from my wife for some very strange reasons and am having a very difficult time coping. My wife was my third marriage and we have been married for less than two years. We had some difficulties but we seemed to be made for one another. Our problems stemmed from our blended family, I had two children she had one child. My childrens mother (my second wife) does not discipline my children very much. She also has never agreed with my or my STBX's parenting styles and was very vocal with regards to her disagreement. On numerous occasions throughout my relationship and later marriage, my children's mother would call throwing a fit over one thing or another, actually once accused me of not feeding the children because one told her she was hungry. Well in December of last year, my children's mother called and was yelling at me telling me that based on a simple statement that my step-daughter made that I showed prefrential treatment to my step-daughter and my wife over my own children. A fight insued and to make a very very long story short, my STBX no longer felt comfortable spending time alone with my children. I told her that we really needed to go back to the way things were before, but she refused. She stated that she must protect her daughter. Very shortly after the blow-up with my children's mother she apologized as she always did. I told my STBX this but she didn't care, she was done dealing with it. Since this was my third marriage, prior to us getting married (April 2005) I told my STBX that she needed to make sure there was nothing that bothered her now that she couldn't live with later. My children's mother was always this way, well before the time I married my STBX. But now, my STBX is done. I tried asking her if we could somehow work things out and all she can say is her feelings have changed and that she knows this is for the best. I am 38 years old and not living in close proximity to my family. I am feeling very alone and confused. I find myself looking at my wedding and 1rst anniversary pictures and killing myself over trying to figure out how my STBX's feeling changed so rapidly over something so ridiculous. I am only happy when my children are around, which luckily for me is half the time plus every weekday morning, but mainly spend my alone time going nuts trying to figure out how to get my life back. I am not looking for answers it just feels good to be able and put in writing what I am feeling.
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