I just keep shaking my head over how unemotional and surgical the break up has been for my STBX. I know it is the right thing and know I will be happier someday soon, but it is amazing how they dont even bat an eye over the relationship ending. Even if she is hurt behind the scenes, my STBX has never wavered and never even shown anything close to remorse or second thoughts. I, along with everyone we know, cant believe it. I just cant seem to understand it and I'm sure I never will. I now it is useless to dwell on it but goddamn its frustrating. I keep thinking... how in the hell did I pick so badly?? And why do I care? I hate that I have feelings for someone that has no feelings for me whatsoever. I just cant believe that there is nothing about me or my part in the relationship that was worth feeling bad over. I mean, how can people be so cold hearted? I guess we all ask this same stupid question over and over. I'm sooo tired of this shit. I want so badly not to care anymore. Time heals all wounds but I am so tired of waiting. I probably have a good 6-8 months of hell to go through. Patience is something I need to work on. Thanks for listening.
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