I am having the hardest time dealing with how he can treat me like somone that he never knew, or loved for that matter..(Even though I know that he did for a long time). There is something around him, like a personal space radar. I cannot even get near him anymore, because he doesnt want me there. I know that, I'm not stupid. Sometimes it almost feels like he is trying really hard not to want me to be there...Almost like he is fighting feelings that have resurfaced. And I truly beleive that he would squash any glimmer of his love he might start feeling again... I really think that he wants to be able to do what he wants, whenever he wants to... I do beleive that he has stayed true, and got out before it got ugly....And I now know that the reason it took him so long was because he knew how selfish this was...There was no reason otherwise.
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