I was trying to get stuff done myself, going to the help center @ the court house, filing out the forms, etc. It just got too much though...I don't have enough time in the day...emotionally, I am exhausted from it all & my physical health is suffering too. So I put the retainer down on my attorney & handed over what I had done...it seemed all very surreal, not what I thought my life was going to be like. :( I KNOW I will be better off for it though in the end because I couldn't keep living the life with that F%*KTARD cheater any longer. Checking phone bills, not trusting my own damn husband, feeling like I was the crazy one, etc...that was NO way to live either!!! I have to keep telling myself that it has ONLY been since Christmas Day when I found out about this second affair. (So it hasn't even been a month yet!) He is STILL telling me to "move on"...like I haven't been or something! LOL! I think I am doing everything at warp speed in my opinion. :) But yet, I have to move on?!? WTF?! I'm not the one that's calling him. He's the one that keeps telling me to call him...when he wants $$$! Then it's...we can be friends, we can talk...FUCK HIM! I have all these emotions going on right now...just had to vent. Thanks for listening! :)
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