My husband and I are still living in the same house (for how long I am not sure) but he has not been home in days. I am feeling so confused. I want to gripe at him for not spending enough time at home but we are separating so how ridiculous is that? I miss him and he says last time I texted him that he misses me yet its like he isnt even living here anymore. He stayed at a friends house last night. I told him to stay there because he had been drinking and I didnt want him to drive like that. I really wanted him home but I worry about him. I feel like I should be letting him go and yet I just want to climb him like a three toed sloth and hang on by digging my claws in.

ARRRRGGGGG! This suck so bad. My brain knows where he was but that nagging little worrywart inside me say he is just starting a life with someone else and thats why he is not home. I am 98% sure that he really was where he said he was. Its that 2% that drives me crazy despite the fact that he is leaving me so why should it matter. I am scared, sad, angry, suspicious, jealous and just plain miserable.