i finally left yesterday, and yeah, i was looking forward to that day to leave, but i'm here and it only has taken me a couple of nights to realize, that no marriage is perfect, i had my flaws and he had his. for god sakes we fought over not wanting to go buy a loaf of bread the other day. when we are home we are like two bumps on a log. just there in couches. so he came to my new place today, sadly enough i signed an apartment lease for 15months., we talked about our mistakes in the past, and the ones we've committed, recently, i've been totally depressed not wanting to eat all day, i realize that yes i was abused in the past, but it's something that we just hid under the mat, never worked on resolving the past. and that's what doesn't let me be happy. we just hid it under the mat, now i want to go back home, i miss him, with his flaws and everything, i'm a lazy bum ass myself. i don't cook, i don't clean, i can care less about the dirty laundry, and he say's that's the only thing that bothers him about me, i said i can't forget the times he abused me, and hit me before, and i feel depressed, but we never fixed that, we just hid it under the mat. so now, i want to go back, i miss him, it only took two days, to realize what it really was that was bothering me, so now what do i do, i'm embarrased, about the friends and family who know about it, and i signed a 15mo. lease. i really need advice, i feel so alone.
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