And so it keeps going for who knows how long. Its been a long time going through all the ups and downs, seems more downs the ups, but I manage to keep it going. So many different phase that one must go through, but I think without them we don't learn. I for one want everything to be free from all that she is and all that she was and all that she does. Don't get me wrong there were good and happy times in the past but those are over clouded by the hurt that was inflicted. My future is out there and in order for me to get there I need to let go of the past let go of expectation of how I think she should act or behave. Moving on requires that I accept her for all she is, good and in my eyes mostly bad. I don't want to be held down by all the negativity that divorce can create. I want to be free from it all to live a life of peace and happiness and in order for me to do that I have to understand what are the things that hold me back.
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