I have been on an emotional rollocoaster the last few months. Moved to another state and 2 years later met a man whom i thought was ready for a true friendship with fun and honesty and if it worked out, then we would grow. In the beginning it was wonderful as most relationships are...getting to know someone etc. then issues came. I wanted more than he could give. He has a one year old whom he just found out was his about 2 months after we met. I was around for his DNA results. after that i saw him literally sprial downward with working out child support and visitation and saw all the stress come upon him. I saw less and less of him, he made many promises he didnt keep to me, and the calls then went from 3-4 x to 1-2. I adressed it. he was understanding but it became a pattern and we did the dance - me addressing it and he became upset more and more. We tried really hard to hold on but i am more available than he is. I guess i just feel rejected and feel like he is trying to let me down easy when i gave me all to this man i thought wanted the same. I know it takes time to find out who you really want, but it just hurts. I saw some comments on his myspace from another woman he sent him kisses for his bday 2 weeks ago and i saw them both "online" last night. When i called him...no answer. I left what i thought was a mature and non angry but letting him know what i thought (that maybe he has been getting to know this person for a while when we were trying to fix or break up nicely) it just really hurts my heart and i am so so sad. He hasnt replied to my mssg, and in a way i dont want him to. I want him to think, but i dont want to play games. I really love him but feel so cheated when maybe all along he took my heart for granted. I dont think he meant to, but he sure didnt break it off. I had to force the issue. He knew he had a good woman, but i guess wasnt ready for me? How do you not be ready for love????? This is very painful.
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