My boyfriend of 7 years left me in Jan. of this year. While I was at a doctor's appt. he was busy packing up his stuff and I came home to find that he had rented a truck (which I paid for (joint account) and then demanded $4,000.00 for taking care of me for the last year. While I had been gone that day he called friends and had a job and a place to stay (on a another friends floor). I had given this man everything he every wanted when I still had money. He confinded me to buy a trailer in the middle of no where so we could do the "Green Acres" thing and then left. So I own a trailer that is isolated in a place where I don't know a soul. He left saying that my depression was too much for him to handle anymore and that he was leaving for 6 months so I "could get my shit" together. We IM daily but nothing in his attitude has changed and he has let me know that I am the one with the problems and that I am expected to make the changes and no he will not talk to my therapist. I'm in the process of apply for disability. Well, this guy has not worked steady while we where together and just quit his job where he is living. He now wants to come "home" and I thought that I wanted him to come home but my case manager at the adult battered women (verbal, emotional) shelter and my therapist are asking me why I want him back and all I can say is that I am scared to death that I will never have another man in my life ever. I know that I'm not very good looking but I'm a kind and giving person who is with a man 15 years my junior who only knows how to take and can't give anything more than "I love you". I think that he's coming home because he crashed and burned in NOVA, but I don't know what to do. I don't want to be alone, but is a bad relationship better than no relationship at all. I would appreciate any input you guys might have. Also have you read the book, "Maybe He's Just That Not Into You". It's great...will I die the old woman on the country road with 37 cats? I just want to die.
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