it's been a lil more than a month since i moved out of my home, the first couple of weeks were very difficult to get by. it was a roller coaster of emotions for me, my H seemed to be taking it pretty well and still does. i've been living with my parents since then, my dad who usually gives me a difficult time about it, is not here, he left to mexico, but he should be coming back soon. i really don't want to be here when he gets back, i'm afraid i wont be able to tolerate it. my H (because we are still married, i haven't filed for divorce) has left me alone, he hasn't harrassed me at all, hasn't even pressured me to come back, we do contact eachother on a daily basis, he is giving me my own space, the sad part is that i left, and that was it, we have not talked about what's going to happen with this 15yr. marriage, he seems to be doing well, the problem is i don't know what to do, should i just go ahead and do my own life, or should i get back with him. i'm terrified about making the wrong decision. it's very hard for me, to move on and be upfront about things, and especially now, when i don't know what i want. what do i do? help me.
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