I'm not sure if my age is important but I'm 24 years old and I've just gone through my my 1st break up. This happened 2 and 1/2 weeks ago and its been the only thing I can think about since. The relationship lasted 5 months and ended on good terms and she still wants to be friends but I'm still in love with her. We would only see each other once a week (with a few exceptions where we would be together for multiple days at a time) because of how busy our schedules are and she said this next semester would be even busier. She said she won't be able to put as much time into the relationship as she felt I deserved and that seeing each other once a week didn't feel like a relationship and we had lost our connection and that she had felt that way for over a month and that she's emotionally unavailable. But she never mentioned any of this to me while we were together. I had definiely noticed a change in her behavior over the last 2 months we were together. She would text less and give shorter responses and would never be herself around me and when I would ask her what was up or how she was feeling or what was bothering her she'd just say she was tired or that her school work was stressing her out and that nothing was wrong. When we spoke in person a week after we broke up she also said she had gotten tired of having to reassure me everything was ok even though everything clearly wasn't ok. Otherwise we wouldn't have broken up right? Part of me feels like she isn't giving me the whole truth just like she wouldn't tell me what was wrong while we were together. I just don't know what to do because I still love her and I still want to make things work between even after she said she feels like we cant. Even though we couldn't see each other in person much we would still talk everyday and when we did get to be together we would make the most of it and I've never been closer to anyone in my life.
I need advice on what I should do. Right now I can hardly function or get any work done because I think about her all day. Do I just let go? And if I do let go, how? I don't want to let go and I would do anything to be with her but I just don't know what that anything is. I just know I can't keep living how I have been for the past 2 weeks and I need to make a decision.
Any questions, advice, opinions, or stories of your own are greatly appreciated.
"Blue Monday" isn't just the name of a New Order song... It's also the unofficial name for the third Monday of January - https://bestlifeonline.com/blue-monday/Hunker down everyone and I hope we all make it through and feel better tomorrow!
I made fish sticks and broccoli & cheese baked potato for lunch today.