I have been in a yo-yo relationship for many years and always loved my husband and cared for our family. That is why i put up with all the crap and the countless times he made me feel like I was inadequate for the marriage and things wouldn't work out. He has decided to leave the marriage several times, each time coming back and me accepting. It has taken a huge emotional toll on me and the last time this has happened (3 weeks ago) I feel has made me numb. I have in a way emotionally moved on because I can't stand the insecurity of never knowing what will happen. I love my husband very much, but I just don't want to become vulnerable and hurt again. I tired of the sleepless nights and tear filled days not sure of what I'm supposed to be thinking of feeling anymore. He has recently wanted to come back confessing his love to me and how wrong he was... blah, blah, blah. The problem is I've heard it all before and this time I'm just to scared to believe him even though deep down inside I want to. I'm not sure if I should stay strong and just shut the door or accept his apology and really try to make this work based on his promises. I did tell him I would be willing to start from scratch, meaning we stay separated and talk as friends maybe go on dates, etc to see what happens. He doesn't seem to accept this rule though. He is being very sweet and caring but he doesn't respect my physical boundaries. He wants to constantly hold me, touch me, kiss me, etc. He says it's because he can't help it he loves me so much and wants me to feel that from him. I'm so confused and I've been so blinded before I don't know what to think. Please offer some advice... I could really use it!!
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