I cannot believe that I am writing this. Have any of you felt comfort in knowing that you could end it all if you wanted? I have never felt this way before and I've been through some pretty rough times. Yesterday and today I woke up feeling so terrible that the knowledge that I had pills and alcohol was comforting. I could make the pain go away if I really wanted to. I am on anti depressants and anti anxiety medication. The pain of my husband leaving me is over riding the effects of the medication.
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