I feel like I am so screwed up!! Went to therapy today and she told me I need to let myself be angry at my husband, need to let go, play hard ball with him when the baby is born (he has made bad choices that will cause a jusge to limit his visitation) and to continue to limit my contact with him....Here's my problem- I can rationalize all of those things in my head and am not in denial but my freaking heart wont let me!!! Why should I give up? Why won't I let myself after the drugs and other women? Why do I want to limit my contact- it sucks thinking he doesn't think about me- and how can I even think about issues with the baby before she's here? For some sick reason, I still want the idiot and don't want to do anything to "jeapordize" the possibility of him coming back. I know I deserve better so that's not it. Someone please knock some sense in me!!!
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