Today was the first time I have seen or physically spoken to him in 3 months. I was nervous going in, but when I saw him I felt nothing. We had our first mediation meeting today. Through the meeting I realized why I am glad he is not a part of my life anymore. He was so arrogant and rude and not at all like the man I married. But afterwards driving home and now sitting here i am so angry and sad. Not because of what I lost, but I just wonder how I could have been so decieved by him. How could I have not seen this years ago. How did i get to this point. I always thought I had a good judgement of people, how could I be so wrong about the person I wanted to spend my life with. Why wasn't I good enough for him. Why couldn't he give me the respect that I always gave him. Why couldn't he be there for me and take care of me like I took care of him. What did I do so wrong? I'm so lost now!!
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