after 5 years I finally left my POS boyfriend for good. I feel in my heart that it is permanent, because this time I am not hurt, I m pissed off, and I hardly ever get angry. I ve been to therapy for years, worked hard to do the right thing. Every therapist I ever had told me the same thing - I pick narcissistic men, and that there is not a whole lot wrong with me.
However, after this third bad relationship I am starting to think that maybe there is something seriously wrong.
My last 3 relationships - marriage 11 years, J - 6 years, D -5 years.
In all 3 relationships I was cheated on.
In the last 2 I was taken advantage of financially, emotionally and just used in every way possible.
I am not ugly, I am not hugely overweight, I am not someone who just lies in bed during sex - there were never any complaints there , I have a great career, I am well educated, I have hobbies, my children are normal and I am very independent.
There is a guy who has been waiting 2 years now to go out with me, I ve know him for 18 years. He is a pretty good guy.. he wants to just go get ice cream.. and all I keep thinking about is that I am damaged goods and the history will repeat itself.
The thought of having another relationship terrifies me.. and this guy actually is looking for a wife. He would marry me 100% if we fell for each other.
I wanted to get married before and now I see it as a trap because at least with the boyfriends I could pack up and leave. Marriage would hold me down like shackles.
I m not even close to being ready to date, but I just feel like there is something about me that made these 3 men lose interest in me.
Granted, the last 2 were narcissistic, selfish and liars.. but still.
totaly angy at myself for my behavion concering money and the saving it or not and the way i spent my whole saved last month and it is happening again feeling it today have to have totrying to stop myself all i am doing is smoking cig after cig the only way i can avoid it is to sit outside and talk to the people going by all i can do
Hi everyone,As I'm sure we all know there is a huge correlation between bipolar and addictive behaviours... but I am a young adult and want to have a glass of wine with friends. I've been working with my doctors and have decided to use moderation management now that I am stable after a year of sobriety.I'm curious, are you sober? Do you use alcohol? Do you have rules for yourself? Have you had...