October 14th will or should be the 7th birthday of my daughter. It is not a very happy birthday. There is no cake, no celebration. She is not here with me. She is deceased. I have been chewed out by my BF, all day for even thinking that maybe I need support. Maybe it is okay for me to be sad right now. When I talked to my mom, she said, "who's birthday is it?" My reply- "Are you to drunk to remember your grandchild?" Probably, again. As usual. Nice work Mom. So apparently I owe the universe an apology for being so damn sad about my precious little kid that I miss so much I can hardly breathe.
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