This is a rotten monday. I got news today from my lawyer that has scared me to death. She told me that maintenance would only be temporary until I could get a job. She also told me that I would probably be expected to get a job with in the next several months. I have been out of work for nearly 3 years. My skills are really rusty. I haven't cracked a book in medicine in more years than that bue to all the stress surrounding the diagnosis of my special needs kids. My self esteem has been affected by crapy bosses, my husbands neglect and porn addiction, and my fear of failure from being unprepared. I feel I would need 8 months to really get on my feet. But it seems I may have 3 if I am lucky. I am hysterical with fear. How does this compensate for all the crap he has handed me. Yea I made some poor choices about maintaining my career but what would any woman due with all the stress I have been through. I really don't know how I'm going to pull it together. I have no family around me to even help with the kids so I can study. Now I have to shop daycare, get all the papers and proof ready for the divorce, pay all the bills run the house, do all the busy work for the kids, get over my depression AND STUDY. I'm completely overwhelmed. I'd go to a mental hospital if it wouldn't affect my custody with my kids.
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