Okay I have to share what I did tonight it might help you too. My man told me last night that he had cheated on me. No explanation no apology no nothing. In fact he justified it by saying I drove him to it. Since of course Im the only one working...blah...blah.

Anyway I cried my eyes out last night and thought I was going to have a breakdown...but today it came to me. He im-ed me and told me it was my fault again and all that. Not sex just comfort blah blah..even had the nerve to ask my why she might not have called him back!!!! As the anger grew my natural female evilness kicked in overdrive. Yes Im still hurting but decided if he was going to be that cruel so would I...and thank goodness we were im-ing....

I started to tell him that I had not always been faithful. And I slipped once too. Then I said of course we should be friends. Then began carrying on a conversation as if we hadnt had any of this happen. Now of course i've been loyal..not the point. I began to calmly ask questions about her. Joking and happy telling him I should approve. Then I told him someone had asked me out and I wanted his advice to see if I should. I went so far as to tell him we should double date....I had a smile on my face the whole time. He kept saying "dont you even care" "arent you mad about it". At that point I sucked it up and said "well, no I want you to be happy and if you arent happy with me then you SHOULD find someone else"...Needless to say I flipped it and he was feeling insecure and not so sure about what he wanted after all. I know lying is bad but what he did was far worse in my opinion. I had to find relief from feeling this way...AND I DID!!!!!