the way it HAPPENED...not the way you see it in your head or your heart.

memory
(n) : the ability of an organism to record information about things or events in the brain with the facility of recalling them later at will; a record of a thing or an event stored in the brain of an organism

This definition doesn't say anything about the TRUTH. I was feeling a little down today. Feeling sad about the loss of a wife and the loss of love. All these memories began to surface of the things I missed and I felt like my day could have spiraled into depression.

Then I started to remember things as they really were and not the way I perceived them.

I remembered that instead of coming to see me she went on dates. She would always find excuses not to come home.

I remembered that she chose all her friends over her husband.

It's easy to picture her face and think about all the good things then feel this is a terrible situation.... When I remember the reality of the relationship... She was very selfish and always expected more than she gave. Never really supported me, lied for years, ect, ect.

I should thank the powers that be that she is exposed for who she is now and not the way I want to see her. No need to mourn the loss of a wife that doesn't love me.

I didn't lose LOVE I lost someone who didn't love me. I didn't lose a wife, I lost a very negative person in my life!

I want Love, Harmony, and Growth and an intense connection with the woman I share my life with, I wanted those things so badly that she had to be removed from my life so that those things could come in.

Can't let my overly glorified memories take my focus off the blessing I was just handed.

Thanks for reading.