Well these holidays were the worst of my life. I felt numb and like I was not really there. I did absolutely nothing last night. I fell asleep at 10:30. I have been thinking about her and dreamed of her last night and it was so vivid. I just feel so alone and isolated. I even cried a bit today. I am dreading seeing her on 1/28 for the dissolution hearing. I have been broken down by her. I hate that she has this over me. It has been one month and everything is still so fresh. I want to get better. I hope you all had a better holiday than I did.
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