First of all let me say that I'm a recovering alcoholic and will have been sober now 3 years July 14th. I drank everyday for 34 years knowing I might be here writing something like this. See I was diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver some 11 years ago and was told then to STOP drinking. I found this impossible to do and never heard of rehab or AA. In fact I didn't or wouldn't think I was an alcoholic until a cold winter night walking home mad because nobody could get me. Well long story short I walked out of a bar staggering of course into the very next place parking lot and was slipping on ice, out of control and headed for Main St with a metro bus coming the other way. I couldn't stop.... I reached for the first thing i could fine to catch myself. It was a 4 foot pipe at a phone booth to protect it. I reached it okay but it spun me into the other 4 foot pipe, both filled with concrete and crushing my right hip beyond repair. That's when I realized that i might have a drinking problem. I've been unable to walk without pain since I had it transplanted. I've had 312 x-rays done and nothing can be found. It's been impossible for me to get into a relationship at all. I have run a series of tests with one to go on May 1st, a lower GI to be accepted for a liver transplant. while I'm waitting on a list placement, this is driving me crazy or insane. I had an opportunity for a relationship but it wasn't there after meeting her online and visiting twice since November 2008. Bottom line is I want it to happen but who's going to take that chance I mean I'm willing to do anything to get better for myself so I could ever be really passionate again. I need some advice.... Mark E
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