I don't know why....but rainy days bring back floods of memories. It's not that I'm depressed...it's just that the what if's and could have's come back in bigger waves than on most other days. The threat of bringing in DSS have calmed her agressive behavior and I swear it's easier when she is beligerant...the nice version of the ex really hurts worse. I dunno. I dunno...just a confusing day in a small NC town. At least I have band rehearsal this evening to occupy my time. I'm also concerned because my son is not doing well in school for many reasons. He's having a lot of trouble focusing and refuses to do his work in class...and I just can't help but think that if I'd found a way to make it work with her we'd be able to help him...I just hope this isn't a preview of his future. However, she did call last night to try to get me to talk him into his homework...but honestly, if I was in his shoes (watching mom kick dad to the curb the week of Thanksgiving...spending the holidays in turmoil, moving from the home he grew up in to a small appartment and transfering schools and loosing all his friends at 8 years old) I don't know if I'd be acting any different...oh well, onwards...
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