Yeah, it got to me too. I guess we need to make ourselves a delicious cake right now to love ourselves. I miss what I had, but I know I can't have it back so I plow forth open to any wonderful opportunity that arises. I get involved at my kids school, go out and visit with neighbors, call friends and family, come on this site and stay busy. It is what reminds me it is not all bad, there is beauty all around us oceans,sunsets, children playing and laughing, helping someone else, making something like a painting or craft, having a nice cup of tea and taking a break from it all. If all else fails watch a comedy and laugh until you cry. It gets easier, you have to fill up your life with other things so you can remember who you are. You are the most important person in your life right now, take care of you. Hugs. Let me know how it goes and do one nice thing for yourself each day, it can be simple like a book, a movie, a pedicure, smelly candles, or yummy smelling lotion...you know what you like try to remember the girl inside you what did she love and get out there and do it. You can, you really can and it will show your kids that you can pick yourself up and move on even though it is really tough some days.

Yeah, I do take time for me. I enjoy me a lot but I have my moments. Like the other night, I had a very vivid dream about him...we were happy together in the dream. Moments later I woke up and realized it was just a dream and was very, very sad. The good news is...I DIDN'T CRY!!! That's an improvement from a couple of months ago...that means I must be getting better.