Hey everyone. I have been sort of a lurker. I come here everyday and it really has been helping. I am so pissed off today. First of all my stbx and I have been seperated for about two months. At first I thought it was just a simple I don't want to work things out on his part. I begged him to work things out. Well now its quickly unfolding that he has been cheating for years. He has had a secret myspace for years now. Been saying very inappropriate things to women. Its all bascially coming out. I feel so embarassed and angry. He has totally moved on. Secured his apt. and of course has his great job. I for the last 3 years moved all over the country for his job. That means nothing to him. I am 2500 miles away from my family/home. I wish I had never put off my education to move with him. That is one of my biggest regrets. We don't have kids thank God. So now I am looking to be forced to leave this state and go home. And I barely have any money to my name. I can't afford a lawyer. And he is dragging his feet. He is not in a hurry at all. It just pisses me off so much that he is so busy calling/texting these women that he isn't doing any of the stuff he said he was going to do. The hardest part is I am looking at having to leave my two cats with him. I can't bring them to my mothers home. I am so distraught over this. They are like my kids.So now my cats will be thousands of miles away to the point I can't even visit them. I am worried that will be such a loss for me that when I get home I will sink even lower depression wise. I just feel like they are all I got left in this world. I am just so angry and frustated. Its been two months and I feel things are getting worse not better. I am so overwhelmed I can't even see straight. I didn't cry a lot when this first happened. Now all I do is cry. I feel like I sm starting to crack. Just having a hard time keeping it together. I guess it just doesn't help that I am all alone up here so far away from family and friends. I am so angry I could just scream. I really could use some support.
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