My fellow brothers and sisters. You guys are my only outlet to vent and for support. I reluctantly filed the dissolution of marriage papers. As you know, this is my stbxs decision. I filed because I did not want to wait on her to do it since she has not been a resident of OH for six months. I wanted to move on with my life as I saw no remorse or signs of reconciliation from her. So today I went to the courthouse, feeling like a complete and utter failure, and filed paper to dissolve a marriage that I thought was forever. I even had a dream about last night replaying the day she told me it was over. As other people are buying gifts and looking forward to the holidays I am in a courthouse submitting papers to dissolve a marriage. I wonder if I will ever truly be happy again. This has been the hardest thing I have ever have to deal with in my life! Everyday is a struggle, and I just want to get her out of my thoughts. Now I know that on the day of the hearing it will be hard, especially to have to see her. Im still so heartbroken. Im not sure if I am still in love with her but I miss the way things were. I wish I could see people being happy after being divorced and that they have found another person and are now happier after being left. I have not seen that in too many cases.
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