Its me again I posted earlier (when does the pain stop when you have his child). I just wanted to add that I know its wrong to be together I just dont understand why after a year it still hurts when he put me down, why I still have nightmares, why I cant move on? Ive been thro other breakups and its never hurt so much. I just cant understand how someone can say they love you more than anything and then call you a slut, whore, bad mother etc when I have raised his daughter very well on my own for the past year since he got into drugs and jail. Dont I deserve some respect? He makes me feel like a piece of shit. He got outta jail and I even lent him money to buy his kids gifts and now that we broke up he says he owes me nothing. Like why do I deserve this? He still has stuff here and presents for his other child (that I bought) and I dont want him comming here. Im even scared to leave for school that he might break in to get his stuff. I just want somewhere to drop it off but i cant get ahold of him. What do I do? And why has this hurt so long? I feel so used and abused.
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