You know what - some days just suck! I've come along way in 7 months - I continue to be here for the kids - yes they're young adults - 17 and 20 but guess what - they still need parents in ther lives. I have continued to work thru this whole thing - there have been days when I just didn't want to get out of bed - but I've done it and I do what I need to continue to do to make sure the kids and I have a roof over our heads, heat in the house and food in our bellies. I'm tired of being everything to everyone - I have hit a wall I just can't do it - I'm struggling today - just don't know if I can put another foot in front of the other - I'm tired of hearing I want to be your friend, I'm tired of having to ask for the damn money, I'm tired of hearing I'll be there for the kids - but you know what a phone call every 2 - 3 weeks is not there. I'm tired of being blamed for the relationship failing - I am a big enough person to know and have owned up to the mistakes I've made over the years - I've learned from them and have gotten things on track financially, the best I can - today - I feel like a failure - my kids are hurting - all I can do is hug them and tell them I love them - that's all I can give, but I'm so tired....
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