I split up with my boyfriend of 5 years last September. We were best friends and had lived together practically since day 1. We had alot of fun, supported each other and there was a really strong attraction there, the only problem was that I simply never felt intellectually stimulated by him. So when it came to long term commitment, I could not make it. It was a really hard decision but I made it. Then we split but remained close friends. Then 3 months ago he met someone else and seems very happy. Meanwhile I am falling apart at the prospect of not having him in my life, I have developed depression and anxiety, I am not eating or sleeping well, doctor has signed me off work and I am staying with my parents until some meds start to work. Why have I gone into such shock at something I was in control of? I have become obsessed with the idea of asking him to come back to me and give it another try. Am I so fickle as to only want this because he is now with someone else? Or is it because I have made a genuine mistake? I can't work it out. Any advice appreciated.
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