I never thought I would end up here. Five years invested, albeit on and off, good and bad...but when I took those vows, I took them forever. I think once when we split, it broke something between us. I haven't felt his tenacity at keeping this relationship good for a while. He now says we are oil and water and perhaps we are. Perhaps this is the door closing so another can open. But it friggin hurts and I am like an addict...I haven't bottomed out...but what difference does it make, it takes two? If he is done, it's done. I was doing fine (he left the house to 'think' for the weekend...hasn't even called)...but I kept busy, etc. Now, I am sinking. Someone send a life jacket.
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