I may have the answer for that! I think it just ended tonight. I am completely numb. Keep in mind my hubby and I split up on Oct. 1st of this year. Last Tuesday I found my husband on several dating sites and cried my eyes out all night long. Tonight I found him with not 1, but 2 profiles on an adult dating site (I guess that is what you call them). I happened to go to one of the earlier dating sites that I had found and it said he was "chatting now". I downloaded the messenger and the chatting was on another site. So I checked it out. My husband proclaims on the 3 dating sites I found him on to be wonderful Holy, Godly, Christian man that puts God first in his life. Well the site I found tonight was for any kind of man but a good holy man if you know what I mean. He certainly didn't mention God on the profiles I read tonight. The regular dating sites and the adult sites contradict themself as you can imagine. On the regular ones he is advertising for a 4th wife. On the adult ones he is says he isn't looking for anything serious, just to have fun. Of course, cause he wants to put yet another GOOD woman through the hell he has put me through. He used to condemn me for playing a card game on line and condemn my son for playing video games. When I told him a couple weeks ago that our home was so peaceful now. He said it was only because we were all doing what we wanted to and it wasn't a house that served the Lord. If it were my older (26 yr old) son would be in church and I would be cooking daily and having meals as a family. Oh please. He is not only a jeckyl and Hyde in the way he treated me, but it looks like he is to himself too. He hasn't hesitated since he left to leave a voice mail saying that I am confused and that I am sick and he is praying for me. Well after tonight I am convinced that he is sicker than I thought. God help him. I sent him an email that just said that I wanted to meet him in a public place this week, that I had something I wanted to share with him, before someone else does. He immediately replies and says he'll meet me Thursday after work. I'm sure he plans to go to church on Wednesday. He is probably thinking I want to tell him I have someone else. I'm really not sure what I am going to tell him. I'm not even sure that I can look him in the eye. One thing is true that he said over the years. He used to tell me that I didn't really know him. That he was a good guy and I don't see him as such. I actually saw him as a much better person than he is. He told the truth once......I never knew who he was. This may hit me, but now I am NUMB. Believe it or not......I haven't shed a tear. I am in SHOCK.
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