Hello everyone... I am back from Miami.. I had a great time being on the beach and spending time reflecting. I missed him at times and wished he was with me. I couldn't write the goodbye letter yet. I got teary eyed on the plane on the way back feeling like I was coming back to this prison. Then I saw people greeting each other at the airport and I wished that he was there to greet me. It's been a little over a month and I just still don't feel normal. What is wrong with me? This whole thing with him contacting me and asking me to talk is playing on me. I wrote him an e-mail before I left and told him that I needed time and space to think about things and that I would contact him when I got back. Well I'm back and I still don't know what to do. What the hell is wrong with me. I just want to be done with all of this!
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