For more details, check out my page, but here's my journal page for today: We sat down last night to discuss splitting the financials....or so I thought. Instead, he apologized for all the bad things that he's ever said and done to me, and he wants me to know that he means it, he's sincere. I don't believe him, I've heard it too many times, and it makes me angry that he waits until it's over to try and make things better. He said he wants to change, I told him that I wanted him to change too, but that he needed to change for himself, and for his kids....they want him to love them, and show that they love him, and he doesn't, he's always negative to them, they never feel good enough for his love. I don't know that I can ever get past the hurt and anger, and I don't know if I want to.....I can't let him hurt me again...I don't want him to hurt me again, and make me feel stupid for believeing that he can change. I don't know what to do....I feel sorry for him, but I don't want to give in again....I think if I continue to act the way that I am (being cordial but not being the wife that I'm supposed to be), that he will get tired of it and it will really show me if he's truly trying to change. Also, if he tries to seek the help that he knows he needs to be a better person, that will show me if he really wants to try.
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