He came over last night to look after the kids and he looks and sounds like shit. He is been put on 3 different types of medicines recently due to health issues including sleeping/anxiety meds. We had made arrangements previous for him coming over that he would be here till a certain time. I had some stuff to do that I couldnt do with the kids and said I would be back on time. So he asks me how long I will be (knowing full well when I will be back) and I told him, then he says well if he wasnt here when I got back he went home because he was tired and not feeling well. I then reiterated what time I would come home (the time agreed upon previously) that I didnt think leaving our 11 yr old to look after our 8 yr after dark was a good idea (they are both afraid of the dark). He agreed and it was dropped. Then he proceeded to poke in little comments about how tired he was, how bad he feels and asked me when I was cutting the grass, when I was doing this that and the other thing and how crappy HE feels. WTF is that. Basically I told him I was never cutting the grass that in fact I was thinking of getting sicles for me and the kids to chop down the hay (which he didnt find funny at all) and my son thought was a great idea. He then said I should ARRANGE for the kid next door to do it. I told him I wasnt doing that either and also said that if he didnt like it why didnt he take care of it. No grass cut yet so I am assuming he did nothing about it. I also asked him last night to go get groceries because I havent had time to do it and he agreed to do so but then he started complaining about how our son was acting because he didnt want to go. So I suggested that both children should go with him...which means that they would have been running around the store driving him nuts. He soon shut up about having to go shopping with our son. I think he is looking for sympathy. I dont care about his needs and his thoughts etc at this point so he is definitely barking up the wrong tree...but am I wrong for feeling this way?? Right now I am still incredibly hurt and mad at him and have basically turned a cold heart to him right now while I try to figure out what I want but I dont want him to die. Just hurt a little. Is this a wrong way to feel. I have never felt this way before towards him. I know its baby steps with the way he is acting and his moods, and expecting him to change but I also dont want to seem so cold that it completely chases him away and he thinks I am a cold hearted bitch. I do deep (very deep) in my heart still love this man and I dont know if this is relationship is over but I dont know if this is the right way to treat him either.
Any thoughts or advice.
Any thoughts or advice.
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