I woke up this morning and didnt feel as bad as I thought I would....then I went and checked my bank account balance and discovered that one of my dog walkers, who I foolishly loaned twenty thousand pounds when i didnt know my husband was going to leave me, has bounced a second cheque for the monthly instalments to pay off the loan. Her husband wrote the cheque last month and it bounced, so I said I couldnt pay her till I got another cheque...he gave me a second cheque, I paid her wages...and today I found the cheque had bounced. so I texted her to say I was upset and I dont have much money and this was mean. She sent back a really hostile text saying how dare I bother her with this on xmas day, that her husband was furious with me..and leave it till tomorrow. I know she will be equally horrible tomorrow and I fear I will not get this money back, which I desperately need now...its supposed to be paid over the next 5 years and I have only had 3 payments. This ruined my day, I feel kicked in the teeth yet again...my husband, my mother, my dog walker, my 2 week lodger...everyone around me is treating me like dirt....I could have had a near normal day if I hadnt spent it worrying about this, and how she and her husband will be tomorrow...they scare me, they get so angry and are so volatile.
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