I'm seperating from my husband after 18 yrs of marriage, and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that its the right thing, he is and always will be mentally abusive, but the thing is that since i told him on sunday i wanted a divorce, i've been having these anxiety attacks, I'm scared to dealth because i've never had to make these kinds of decisions before like finding a house, paying bills, basically making real life decisions because my husband always took care of all that, he treated me like i was to stupid to do any of that, I think it was just another way to control me. I'm not sad for me, I'm sad for my children, one of whom is 16, the other is 14, they understand, but I know its hard for them. My question is how do i make the transition when my husband wont leave, says i have too? I was denied a rental yesterday because i was a single mom, and they told me they wanted to rent to a couple. That was heartwrenching, I felt like I got kicked in the stomach, it felt like I was being punished for finally standing up for myself, now i've been sterotyped, and stuck in a corner by myself, and I'm second guessing if I made the wrong choice.....Any advice at this point would be nice!! I feel completely lost, and alone. I've felt so alone for the last 10 yrs of my marriage, i'm so sick of feeling like this....please help!!
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