I was with my EX for 10 yrs. The marrage got to comfortable. We didnt have sex or touch, no romance. It was like we were best friends. Well I got lonely and cheated with a girl! He found out. At the same time he was offered a job where we had to move, I wasnt ready to move due to alot of reasons. So he decided to give me a year to figure out my life. So he left and Dana moved in. Jay and I talked daily, and still loved each other very much. Dana and I were a wreck, and after 6-8 monthes i made her move out. So Jay and I made plans on how to work things out. He had a roomate(a girlfriend) that wasnt working and after he got her moved out i would move in. Well come to find out shes pregnate. Which killed me cause he agreed to wait a year, plus I always wanted kids and he always said no, never! So I finally agreed to be a step mom. Than he decides he cant forgive my cheating and we divorced. Im with a new guy and he is great, I love him alot!!! But I still cant get over Jason. We are still really good friends, and sometimes I think we will get back together. Even though im in love with someone else. Well last night we were out at the bar and the EX shows up. He's flirting with the bartender, and hugging on her holding hands. He never did that with me. They went home together, and had sex. She is a friend of mine. So he calls me today to tell me and get advice!!! It really bothers me, but why? Im with someone and happy. So why do I get so weird about Jason? How do I get over him, its been almost 4yrs. I feel guilty to cause of new boyfriend. I dont know what to do. Or why i feel this way.
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