Was with ex for 7 years married for almost 5. Almost two years ago my nightmare began when he started abusing alcohol and then prescription drugs. I finally made the agonizing decision to divorce which was final yesterday. My ex could not show up because he was in jail. I KNOW this was the "right" decision BUT I am still dealing with horrible depression and just plane fear and anxiety. Please tell me this will get better. I hate waking up in the morning because morning seem to be the worst!!! I hate it, hate it! I know it has only been a day since the finalization but I just want so badly to feel better. To be able to have hope and joy again. God what I would do to feel "normal" again!!! I know divorce is hard for anyone but I think when you give up an addict it seems even harder because in a way, I was addicted to getting him better and that imaginary life we would have together. Maybe that is why I feel so aweful? Just looking for hope!
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