Hi all, my name is April. I was engaged for over the past 2 years and was so happy and so in love. We have known each other for about 16 years and he moved to AZ from CA to be with me. We have always loved each other really since the day we met. We had the wedding all planned out, I had my dress, our honeymoon was planned, and we even had our children named. Last Monday he came over and broke up with me. I was shocked to say the least. I thought everything was fine. I guess I was so in love that I was blind. He said that he was unhappy with himself that he was unhappy in our relationship. For the first few days I was a complete mess. I have never cried like that before. I couldn't sleep, eat, function, or do homework. I am a full time college student and getting straight A's is very important to me. I got a D on a test and almost had another melt down. The last few days I have been trying to exercise and talk to loved ones to feel better. I have been focusing on school and my future without him. I am turning 30 on Saturday and I am sad that I am not spending the day with him anymore and that I am going into my 30's single. I feel old though I know I'm not. I'm sad that I don't have kids OR a boyfriend at my age. I am jealous of my friends that are married and/or have kids. I wasn't before because I was happy and in love but now I find myself distant from certain friends because of my jealousy. I can't imagine dating again, starting all over, and I can't imagine being happy again. HELP!!! Thank you!