I wrote a post earlier about mixed signals...then wrote a journal entry..and am tired of being lost and confused. I want to get pissed!! I want to be angry...because I have found that when I am...I get a lot more accomplished for ME. And feel better about moving on with a plan to rebuild my life and eventualy leave what has been a very painful, emotionally unfair, passive aggressive relationship for over 10 years. I find myself wallowing...and I need to get out of my own pity party and need help getting there. Its amazing how pity is like quick sand..it just sucks you up and holds you there. Any advice from anyone who also goes through this? I thought about writing down all of the crappy things that he's said to me over the years...all the negative things he's done and keep the list handy, so that when I"m wallowing...it will help get me out of the funk. What works for others? I start school in a few weeks and I"m scared that my wallowing and distraction will affect me negatively. I need to get pissed instead of being confused and heartbroken.
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