I went and seen my wife this weekend. We had a good time and we talked a lot. She told me that if I would move back she wants to work on our marriage. I left originally to clear my head and get some family support. I think me doing this made things worse. Not sure yet. I was so angry and hurt I just wasn't ready to see her again. Over the last few months of being alone and not seeing her just got to me. I told her that I meant my vows and I would stick to them if she really wanted to make things work. She said she did. How can I be sure she will do this and not be for real? She asked me if I still loved her? I said I am not sure. I told her that I know that I love her but, confused about her. I said I think about you all the time and I miss you so much. We didn't talk about it much after that. Later I called her and told her that the day we took our vows I meant that. For better or worse and right now it's worse. I let her know that I am willing to give her a second chance. I found out that she was happy with me and she could be happy again. However I fear that my thought toward her having another relationship will interfere. For all the religious people. I know the bible talks about having affair is a sin. It also talks about forgiving and forgetting. Would God look down on me for loving her again and giving her that second chance? I want to try again so, that in life I can know that we gave it a second chance if it doesn't work out. I would hate to look back and say what if? Another question I had was will the affair ever be laid to rest? If it would work out I don't wnt to be thinking about if she is being with another guy. Maybe I pushed her to do it by not showing her that I cared enough or loved her enough. I would hate to miss out on my chance for happiness. Everyone makes mistakes but, will she turn out to be ok? If I could find one person who has been through this and worked out thier marriage I would be more positive. I feel that I have to give it a chance. Some good feedback would be good!
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