Somebody, anybody... please respond. I just don't know what to do anymore. I love my children so much but I feel like I'm not being a good parent these days. My oldest daughter is having behavioral issues in school, she comes home and feels like I don't love her as I watch her develop an even stronger bond with her grandmother. Now, I know that that sounds like jealousy and a bit of it is. I hear her talk to her about school or anything silly that may have happened to her and she doesn't with me. I know that she still sees my pain and does what she can to help but how horrible am I of a parent that I allow her to see my hurt? My son just came home from the hospital after being admitted for asthma. I just started a new job and have already had to lose a week's pay and my STBX Husband doesn't care ANYTHING about me! I can't believe that I'm still pregnant with his child and he still denies the paternity, I can't believe that he ALREADY lives with someone else. I thought that I had the courage to leave back in August but at the last minute, I got scared and stayed.... for what though??? I'm in the South Bronx, in a one bedroom apartment with three children???? What would possess me to be scared of ANYTHING ELSE???? I still love my husband and want him back and I'm pissed about that because I just want to get to the being angry with him stage so that I can open my eyes and see a beautiful world again. Am I really crazy???
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