since this is my weekend without the kids i decided to go with my sunday school class to an outing sat. night. we are going to a pizza place, then to a putt-putt place and then laser tagging.this will be my first time to go out with them. i enjoy the people in my class and i thot i needed to be out with other people.the problem is when i checked my name on the list wed. nite i found out one of the women invited this woman who used to go to our church until her and her husband divorced(?).not sure if actually divorced,no one seems to know, but i think she is.here lies the big problem. she is my fantasy prayer woman. she is 2 years younger than me,people say she is as pretty on the inside as she is on the out...she looks younger than that. i used to pray for someone just like her and i know that if she goes i will just be infatuated with her and i realize that i could never get someone like her and i will end up frustrated all weekend thinking about that..she only comes to our church to hear her daughter sing or listen to her brother preach..he has since left to return to his missionary country so i dont think she'll be back until he gets back in 2.5 years.dont know whether to go and just try not to think about it or dont go.. i do get sick of hiking or fishing every other saturday by myself..thank you all
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