Even though I've left in my mind, my heart says something....I got back together with this jerk-hole after a year of being fine without him. He begs for me back, totally reorganized his life, great job, going back to school so I start to feel a little safe at the thought of dating him again and after just 3 weeks come to find out he's abusing prescription meds again (xanax and zoloft) which will lead to other drugs and cheating. Says he hates/resents me for taking so long to come back...Well my answer to that is why the heck did you get back with me three weeks ago!!! Today after missing two days of work/school I got to his place to check on him and within minutes he's the meanest person, putting me down and telling me to leave so I swear back, tell him a few not so nice things about himself bc I'm devastated he's using and he slams me against the wall and starts choking me. I know this all boils down to drugs but I hate him and am so sad/disappointed in myself that I allowed him back in my life to experience this type of treatment. Loser doesnt deserve me. I know it but I'm still lonely...I feel like I let down my guard just to get slapped in the face....
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