I am so down today. I thought I was doing so good but then here comes the stupid rollercoaster ride again. I think it is because on the 16th of August it will be exactly one year ago that I found out about my stbx and the OW. I thought I was getting over it and for some reason that is all I can think about. I think about everything we went through together and I stayed with him through it all.How can someone who has been there thru it all just find someone else and not even feel bad about it. I know I wasn't perfect but neither was he. There are some things I wish I could change but I can't. He left and has been living with the OW since then. Everyone told me they wouldn't last. Well they are still together. I never in a million years would have thought he would cheat on me. Even his friends were shocked. They said that it wasn't like him at all to do that. Even they are suprised they are still together. Oh well I have to move on. I thought I was doing goood at moving on but then BAM I don't know what triggered it. Anyway just needed to vent and let it out.
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