I think I have pinpointed my worse hurt through all of this. Yes, her asking for a divorce really hurt but I think what hurts the most is seeing her still here at the house and knowing that another man had sex (or still may be having sex) with someone that was to be MY wife. I just stare at her and I can almost see them having sex. It's worse than a slap in the face.. it's like someone is stabbing me over and over again. It is really ripping my heart out! I feel violated... She say's she hopes to be gone by Christmas. I just don't think I can even think of starting the healing process until she is gone.

My other new hurt is her still talking about her brother and his wife having their first baby. See, we have no kids and I always wanted to be the first to have the baby. Her mom even made it like a race to see who would give her the first grandbaby. Even though my stbx and I have not had sex in over 2 years I still felt in the race per say, even though she has had sex (maybe many times) in the two years..
I guess it could have been worse huh? She could have given her mom a grandbaby by another man other than her husband.